May. 29th, 2011

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I meant to write many posts on here. Original writing, fandom, pictures of anything. Everything.

Truth is, life just got busy. Right now, I'm nearing the end of my first semester of Honours, and that's taking up a lot of the background of my mind. I'm loving it, and I feel like I've managed my time really well. If I get offered more hours at work next semester, I feel like I can take them. Thesis is in full whole draft stage. Two course work units are both at final draft stages. Yet, even when I'm sitting around on my computer doing nothing much (like right now), I'm thinking about how much I'm not!doing Honours work/reading/writing/etc.

It's just... tiring. When I stop and think about it... I realise it's a lot more tiring than I've been giving credence too.

I've been filling my time more liberally with social stuff these last couple of weeks. Unconsciously, I suppose, I've realised that spending all of my time on my Honours is not healthy. My boy has already taken and practiced [personal profile] crazyjane's advice of taking papers I was reading from me and calmly saying, "Not now."

That the weather doesn't know what it's doing isn't helping, and what's really not helping was having a solid week of overcast in the week just gone which made my wakefulness seem... difficult. Most of Friday disappeared in a sort of dream. Overcast is the worst. Inevitably, by the end of the day, I have that feeling of having not slept the night before and ready to fall over the minute it gets dark.

And then, of course, there was my Glee marathon two nights ago that made the world a happier place, and kept me up till 4.30am.

On happier places, I have a new girlfriend, and my boy has a new almost!girlfriend. I sometimes catch myself staring off into space with this foolish smile on my face. Those are wonderful moments, and not just because they are also moments in which I completely forget about the Honours work that I am not!reading/writing/etc.

I want more time. I'm absolutely loving everything in my life right now. At the moment, I seem to be managing to juggle everything so that nothing and nobody important is neglected. But I do want more time. This last week, particularly, I've been taking more time to myself than I usually do. I really feel like, with all the things going on at the moment, I need to make sure that I am quite aware of where my own head's at. And I am getting on top of that. I just also feel like... if I could let go of this tiredness, just a little bit, I would be enjoying everything that much more :)

Edit: And, yes, the irony of making a post about tiredness at 11pm instead of simply going to bed is not at all lost on me :D

*trundles to bed*


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